My son Eric took this picture of me just before he left for college
Thursdays have been the day I post a weekly podcast and I am sure you have noticed that I have not posted one in a while. I keep hoping that I will pull one out but each week comes and goes and I do not do it. The truth is that I miss my sound engineer and my son, Eric. He was my go-to guy who took my material and magically turned it into the weekly podcast. Now that he is in his first year of college, I have tried to do it on my own and I havedone it on my own but my heart is not in it. I am sure when I feel ready I will either figure out how to keep it going myself or hire another person to help me transmit weekly podcasts, because I have always valued bringing my conversations on TFIO to life! But for now, it was important to give you the reason why you haven’t heard me on the blog and I am sorry. I look forward to bringing back the podcasts and when I do, you will be the first to know!
I am moving my son to college tomorrow. The day has finally come; after the college tours, the high school graduation, and the too-short summer, we are packing up and getting ready to go. To move, I will be wearing these jeans and t-shirt, which is always my go-to outfit, not just for the comfort but for the style. And I will remember this day and this outfit. The day Eric was born, I wore a bright yellow dress. He was a big baby and I must have looked like a huge bumble bee walking through the hospital corridor! Too funny. That day feels like yesterday.
Although I have the questions running through my head: did I teach him enough, did I prepare him enough, did I do enough? And although I had a fleeting moment when I wondered: How would it be if I moved down there with him? – today is not about loss. Today is about love; the love that a mother feels when she nurtures her baby for eighteen years, and then sends him off to fly on his own. I am moving my son to college tomorrow. And I will remember this day and the outfit I chose to wear. With love.
I head back to college today! Not for me, but for Eric and his orientation. What to wear, as the mother of a student and not the student himself? Casual, yet mature, yet stylish, is the look I will try for. I guess I will start with my camo khakis and easy walking shoes. Wish me luck!
I’m off to college … not for me … for my son! I leave today to tour colleges with my 11th grader and I don’t mind telling you that I find the whole thing a little freaky! How is it possible, when I remember being in college as if it were yesterday? I guess time flies, though, because it really wasn’t yesterday, but actually, the late 70s/early 80s. Oh well …
My college friend Sarah tells me to be on the lookout for students – men and women – wearing beanies. According to Sarah it’s definitely a trend: a beanie, like the kind you can find at urban outfitters, is a slouchier version of the skullcap. I’m on the lookout …
Be back in a few days! Will miss you! Wish me luck!